Often in the midst of life’s hard, change occurs. It is usually the change that makes life so hard at that moment. Some change is thrust upon us like an unwelcome storm on what was forecasted to be a sunny day. The storm wasn’t on our radar. Regardless, we find ourselves adjusting the layout of our life to this unforseen circumstance.
Life is easy to live to when it goes according to our plan. We can chart out our course knowing that we have got this.
And then we spot a cloud on our perfectly sunny day threatening everything we had just planned for ourselves…
I have had many such circumstances in my life. Days that were supposed to be all sunshine and rainbows, turning into storms of epic proportions. Shouting into to the wind my disappointment at the changing events, God has heard me say countless times that “I didn’t sign up for this”.
There are circumstances in life that we cannot do one single human thing about. We have to dig deep within ourselves and trust everything to the One who holds us. No amount of intervention on my part will change such situtations. The only thing I can control in this place is my attitude and my outlook. I can speak life and seek to find what is good…and sometimes that is truly all one can do.
Other times we can influence our circumstances. I am not saying to you that this is easy. When life presses in on you, leaving you so beaten down that you can barely get out of your pj’s or keep your hair brushed, it’s not easy to make a change.
WHAT? More is going to be required of me? A you stinking kidding me? Is this a cruel joke? You see where I am right now right? You are asking me to give more of myself? There is simply nothing left to give…..
This is the place I found myself in when I realized that I needed to make changes in what I was eating to better my health. I felt like I was barely making it through a day and now I needed to make a change. “I cannot handle one more thing” was my address…
Sometimes in order to move forward, you have to take a step back.
Staying the same was not an option. Life’s grind had just about taken all I had left of myself. It was time to reach into the depths of who I was as a person and gather every ounce of courage, stubbornness and drive that I still possessed and take some action. I had to boil life down to what was the most important at that time. Everything that wasn’t necessary had to fall by the wayside for a while.
This meant that I didn’t make it to every family function. I had to step aside from volunteering at my church. We had to tell our girls no to some activities that they wanted to be involved in. Coffee with my girlfriends didn’t always happen. Date night with my man? How about we cook together, or watch an entire season of our favorite show?
Making these changes has made a huge difference in my health and I am now able to add back in some activities that I had needed to cut out. I still don’t live an overly busy life. I guard my health which in turn means I guard my time. We live our life a little slower paced than some. Enjoying family dinner, game nights or watching Netflix are treasured times. Instead of making huge weekend plans we have embraced time to create. I love nights when the piano and guitar are playing and little dancers are dancing while singing their hearts out. Simplicity can bring out great beauty!
While I reference my need to make dietary changes here, what I am saying can apply to changes of all kind. Maybe you are in the midst of a relationship crisis, left brokenhearted and feeling cast aside. Maybe you are needing to make a career change but you cannot see how you can possibly make that happen? Where is a person to draw from when you are completely spent? Maybe you are a Momma and have spent your entire day hearing your name called for any number of reasons. Wiping crying eyes and feeling you need the wisdom of Solomon to figure out who do what to whom? You can’t even put a complete sentence together in your mind let alone embrace the idea of making a change in your life.
Lives and changes have many different faces. I might not know the exact place that you are walking today but I must encourage you….gather courage, take a step, even a small one..and then another…and another. You will find yourself breathing freedoms air once again…and I dare to say…you will even be able to keep your hair brushed!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.